30 wonderful years on the planet Earth

I am old and okay with it…kind of.


Thirty things

1. I love shaving my legs
2. I never feel pretty
3. I think Chicago is the greatest city in The U.S.A
4. My absolute favorite candy is the Cadbury egg.
5. I think I have cute ears
6. I love ballet flats
7. If it were up to me I would drive an old 1970's muscle car
8. I have a celebrity crush on Simon barker
9. I think I lucked out when I found Aaron. He is amazing.
10. Whenever I see something on the side of a highway I automatically think it is a dead body...everytime
11. My new year’s resolution is to be nicer to humanity.
12. I tend to over share
13. I find it difficult trusting people that don’t laugh
14. I have always felt a little like an outcast and I like it that way
15. I really like my handwritting
16. I like to watch really trashy TV shows and Aaron makes me feel like the scum of the universe for it.
17. My favorite show is weeds, Aaron hates it!
18. I wish someone would pay me to write
19. I have a fish and I kind of neglect it
20. I wish I were a vegetarian
21. I hate coconut and raisins
22. I have zero self control
23. My mom treats me like I am 12
24. I was holding my dads hand when he died. It was heartbreaking and amazing all at once
25. I wish I could dance properly
26. I hate that my teeth are super tiny
27. As a kid instead of T.P ing people’s homes my friends and I would take bagels from the local bagel shops dumpster and bagel people houses. It was pretty hilarious and completely absurd!
28. I wish I were more like my dad.
29. Currently my favorite band is the shins
30. I think my friends are cooler then anyone else’s!

Jacob is 8

I managed to let your birthday slip by this year without my usual letter. SO my little man is 8 years old. Everyday you make me smile. You are my emotional child, and when I say emotional I mean that in the best way possible. You are no lump on a log. You a radiant source of energy. When you are happy you are very very happy and when you upset you are utterly outraged. I love that about it. It makes you real. I have loved sharing the last 8 years with you.

Another reason to hate birds

Everytime I get on an airplane I think I am going to die. I keep it together and don't freak out or anything but the whole time I'm in the air, I am hoping that Aaron remarries and finds a nice lady to care for my kids. This article, combines two of my most irrational fears, death by birds and death by plane, luckily it has a happy ending: http://www3.signonsandiego.com/stories/2009/jan/15/plane-river-011509/?zIndex=37788

The san diego zoo

The best way to ring in the new year

On January 1st my mom and I left San Diego for Chicago on a road trip that lasted three days. I hadn't allowed myself a moment of reflection since the death of my dad so it was nice to sit in a car for hours without little people pulling at my legs and demanding snacks and entretianiment. I tried to continue on with my regualarly scheduled life and pushed aside every sad thought I had. The road trip hit me like a bag of bricks and ended up being a very zen like three days. I miss my dad so much that it hurts to think of him.